work.

I hate my job. Well i mean i dont hate it, but its to the point where its annoying. I get payed 4 an hour plus my tips. but we are rarely busy, therefore i dont make a lot in tips. I have to clean the bathrooms and my tables and mop and help with dishes and all kinds of things. I dont think i get payed enough to do my job. It doesnt matter though, because soon im going to graduate, and go to college, and be out of owensboro, and find a new job which hopefully pays more. Im trying to go to california this summer, and i have to save like 1,500 dollars and i started saving a month ago and so far i have 150. im not close and its aggravating. if i made a bigger check i could save more. so i need to find a new job i guess.

EXEMPTIONS!

I dont understand why if you have 8 A's that you cant get out of all the finals. I mean if you are smart enough to get an A in all of your classes then why cant you be rewarded for getting out of all your finals. I dont have all A's but if i could get out of all finals, maybe i would want to get all A's therefore i have more motivation to get the A's. PLUS im out for tuesday. wed. and thrus. morning. If the finals were the other way around. I would not have to be at school friday. I would rather not be here friday than tuesday but its whatever. I still get to sleep all day. But ill probably end up cleaning. Everyone is happy that they get out of finals so you dont have to come to school. but it ends up being a boring day, because most the time your friends have finals when you dont, so your just sitting at home BORED. atleast your not taking another test thoughhh.

SNOW

It aggravates me sooo much that its freezing outside and yet NO snow. I wouldnt mid being cold if there was snow on the ground. I mean what is the point of December is there is absolutely no snow on the ground. I saw some frost and it sprinkles a little bit of snow the other day. I dont really want a snow storm, but atleast like a foot or two. I dont want it to snow so much that we get locked in our house and cant drive anywhere. I really wanted to graduate in may when im supposed to. So hopefully it just snow a foot. Im just tired of not having ANY.

jdlksajflkajf

I dont understand how things got so confusing. You find out something that you thought would be a big deal, and then you push it in the back of your mind. You try to erase, and it seems as if its disappearing and then something triggers it. There you are back into the sinking depression of the thought that caused all of this. You want to end it and it seems so simple. But its not. The what ifs are always running throughtout your mind. You dont want to miss out on something, but one thing blocks it. Then again you dont want to miss out on the other journey, because you never know when its gonna happen again. This could be the last. The could be the best. You dont want to lose it. But its hard. Its always going to be hard, but maybe thats why you want it so badly. The thought that if its gone it will probably never be back. And if it is back will it be the same? I cant get rid of this horrible feeling mixed with the amazing feeling. Its up and down all the time. But i dont think i want to let it go.

Thanksgiving Feast

For Thanksgiving im going to eat turkey of course, but i dip it in a-1 sauce. I am going to have macaroni, mashed patatoes, stuffing(only my grandmas) vegetable cassarole, cherry cheesecake. ROLLS. coconut pieee. I love Thanksgiving, but Christmas is my favorite. For both of those holidays i have to go to 4 different house and eat 4 different times, but im not complaining. My great grannie makes some type of cold salad with fruits and something and pecans idk but its really good.

RAiN

We just watched a video called rain and it was really amazing. At first it didnt really sound like rain but if you dont watch the people and invision a rain storm then it sounds almost identical to it. It was funny how different the people were about the way they clapped and snapped. Some people were trying to make the most noise and some were trying to be quiet.

Too Far

I have ran away too far
and now im stepping back
and folloing my heart
im tired of living the way i am
and thinking too much before i stand
im letting go of too much emotion
and letting my heart eat up the devotion
as soon as my ming learns how to love
no telling what we can become
constantly paranoid of being lied to
and feeling like nothing
if only my heart would show me im something
the i would know
that no matter what may be
i could love you and i could love me

Tired

Im tired of running in circles
just to figure you out
im tired of hiding in corners
just to get away from my doubts
but who am i to worry
why should i care
its just the thought of one day
you not being there
its like a nightmare
captivating all the good
thinking everything wont go right
even though it could

Mind and Heart

Theres a never ending battle
and its tearing me apart
back and forth emotions
between my mind and my heart
people throw away their past
and so can i
havent grown the wings yet
but im trying to fly
its like a puzzle that wont quite fit
this one little piece
but you just cant quit
coming together now
i see where to start
somewhere between my mind and my heart
i wont give up
even if the answers not so clear
because when i look beside me
ill know that you are here
the days wont seem so lonely
now that your around
if only i could figure everything out
all of it seems so perfect
but im always seeking flaws
if i could only let you in
and tear down all these walls
breaking through my barriers
i know just where you belong
somewhere between my mind and my heart

Dont

Dont let go of your emotions
because they get you through the days
dont try to forget your worries
because they will be back again someday
dont just walk away from you problems
because theres mroe you will have to face
dont forget any of your memories
even if they were a mistake
because your dreams may not be
what you thought they should have been
and your life might take a turn
that comes to a dead end
so dont forfet anyone
or anything you went through
because late at night
its the hurt that bothers you
put it in the back of your head
but dont erase it out
bcause the obstacles you pass
is what lifes all about.

WANTTT

I still find each day to be too short for all the thoughts i want to think, all the walks i want to take, all the books i want to read, and all the friends i want to see.
--John Burroughs

I truely agree with this quote. Everyday seems so long at the beggining and then by the end of the day you never feel like you've done everything you wanted to do. Everything seems like it can be done, but it goes by so quickly that you cant finish a thing. You might have something you need to do that day, but it gets blown off by something you want to do. Then that night you dont have time to do that thing you needed to do, because your body is telling you go to bedddd.

THE PAST, THE PRESENT, & THE FUTURE?

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
--BUDDHA

Okay so, obviously we shouldnt dwell about the past. Everything that has happened to us, is either good or bad. We of course want to remember the good parts of life, but why should we sit around and wonder about why the bad things happened. Dont dwell in them, learn from them. Now for the future, we can think about what we want it to be like, but sometimes obstacles get in the way, and we cant go forward with what we might have thought to be our dreams. If we only think about whats happening here and now, then we should have nothing to worry about tomorrow.

Life is an experiment

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

I think what he means by that is that life is about taking chances, making mistakes, and learning from them. No matter how many experiences you go through, you can never understand life completely. The more chances you take the more fulfilling your life will be in the end. You can't just sit around waiting for something great to happen, you have to get out there, and do something for yourself. You have to experiment with life, to find out who you really are.

What would life be life without potatoes

If we didnt have potatoes life would probably have less starch. Mcdonalds wouldnt have greasy, salty, tasty fries. People would probably not be as fat from sitting on the couch eating potato chips. More people would be devasted that mashed potatoes werent even a side they could have for dinner. Then again, if we didnt even know of the existence of potatoes such as Englan in Chaucer's day, we wouldnt even miss them. If we had no clue what a potato was, then life would be just plain.

What family means to me!

Family to me means that theres always someone there for you. Some people think their friends are the ones that are always there for them, but in the long run they might move away, and they will probably change. Your family doesnt, they love you no matter what, and they would do anything for you. They are the ones that matter the most.