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I dont understand how things got so confusing. You find out something that you thought would be a big deal, and then you push it in the back of your mind. You try to erase, and it seems as if its disappearing and then something triggers it. There you are back into the sinking depression of the thought that caused all of this. You want to end it and it seems so simple. But its not. The what ifs are always running throughtout your mind. You dont want to miss out on something, but one thing blocks it. Then again you dont want to miss out on the other journey, because you never know when its gonna happen again. This could be the last. The could be the best. You dont want to lose it. But its hard. Its always going to be hard, but maybe thats why you want it so badly. The thought that if its gone it will probably never be back. And if it is back will it be the same? I cant get rid of this horrible feeling mixed with the amazing feeling. Its up and down all the time. But i dont think i want to let it go.

Thanksgiving Feast

For Thanksgiving im going to eat turkey of course, but i dip it in a-1 sauce. I am going to have macaroni, mashed patatoes, stuffing(only my grandmas) vegetable cassarole, cherry cheesecake. ROLLS. coconut pieee. I love Thanksgiving, but Christmas is my favorite. For both of those holidays i have to go to 4 different house and eat 4 different times, but im not complaining. My great grannie makes some type of cold salad with fruits and something and pecans idk but its really good.

RAiN

We just watched a video called rain and it was really amazing. At first it didnt really sound like rain but if you dont watch the people and invision a rain storm then it sounds almost identical to it. It was funny how different the people were about the way they clapped and snapped. Some people were trying to make the most noise and some were trying to be quiet.